I changed my phone language to Chinese. I think it'll be easier to learn the language if I'm just constantly imersed in it. Speaking of Chinese, I'm not really agreeing with how my teacher teaches it. We learn the sounds, of course, but we don't exactly learn the characters; he puts them on our work and expects us to know them, but we personally don't exactly use them. I do. I've been using Chinese social media since January and have learned enough bits an pieces to be proficient in my Chinese class, I basically spend most of my phone time on it, so, changing my whole phone isn't that much different. Although, I did find 2 new characters that look funny: ta and ao, convex and concave respectively.
My brain fog is gone and waking up is easy, but going to bed is especially hard; I just sit there for hours until I randomly fall asleep. My friend got his liscense and I think he's going to start driving himself, which is great, but, he was kind of the only thing actually getting me up in the morning and to school. 8th and 9th grade were horrible for me. I was in and out of school because I was so tired and there was no motivation to even get up. When I got my liscense, it meant I could go on my own time and not have to be on the bus like 30 minutes before school even started. If he starts driving, I might lose my reason to be punctual and fall back into my middle school years, especially with my "seasonal" depression that comes and goes.
10:43am (10/9/25)
I have been having some serious brain-fog recently. I haven't been getting to my website because I'd much rather sleep during my free block. I also have a school assignment I chose to do on my website, which I can't access outside of the library computers. Although, I get home and then try to nap, but just end up sitting in bed on my phone until like 10:00. I don't know if that has anything to do with it, but it's been keeping me from schoolwork.
Greta Thunberg and multiple other kidnapees have just returned from Israel to tell their story. It's sick the things that went on there. And, yet, Israel gets to lie even more: "they had water, they had legal aid, they had food." And it just keeps going. I do think it's good, though, that most (some are still in Israel, like Mandla Mandela and others) have been able to come back and tell what happened.
Today also marks the 2 year anniversary of October 7th.
3:37pm (10/7/25)
Today I was in a good mood because I had learned that, even though the Global Sumud Flotialla had been intercepted, the distraction made by the flotilla allowed Gazans to safely fish for the first time in years (after the full ban in January). The Israel Navy was so occupied with the boats that they forgot to shoot at the Gazans trying to get food. I was also reminded of the international protests against Israel throughout Europe and the US, and that other countries are still calling Israel out for their illegal actions.
All in all, though, the day was still the same. I did my schoolwork and went home.
3:37pm (10/3/25)
I reread Catcher in the Rye for the second time just recently. It's become my favorite book and I've challenged myself to read it annually.
I sort of do it to make sure I can still read well, what with my ADHD and Summer keeping me from reading in school.
It was the precursor to me reading the Communist Manifesto, something I should have read years ago. I have been interacting with communist ideas for years,
but never really read past Principles and I was getting self-conscious about my ability to argue and understand the concept, so, I decided to set on a path
and actually read the theory. Not that I have no idea what it is, it's just that you should be as educated as possible if your going to make it a thing. I haven't
finished reading Wage Labour and Capital because I've been working on my websites during my free block.
I used to have all 4s in my classes, but my math teacher gave me 3s, so my GPA went from a nice 4 to a 3.66. I have been surprisingly on top of things
this year. 8th, 9th, and 10th were pretty bad years that totally screwed me up. I'm on top of my schoolwork for the first time in years, I show up to school everyday,
and it's not as hard to get out of bed. Things are getting better.
That's sort of ruined, though, because I've been quite stressed for the past year. I have been illucidated on Israel-Palestine history and current events, not to
mention US current events, and it has all made me quite stressed, frustrated, and uneasy. It's sort of a burden, it keeps me up at night. That on top of
my horrible school schedule; it's like the people selected as horrible of a group as possible for each class. There are kids who misbehave, but it's mainly the noise.
I've always been sensitive to noise, but, ever since I started taking my Adderall regularly, it's like it's amplified and everything gets on my nerves and makes me stressed.
7:33pm (10/1/25)
This is where I might put anything intersting or important that happened in my life. A timeline of books I've read, travel, general thoughts that aren't enough to warrent anything big. I don't know how often I'll put stuff here; depends on if I feel like it.
7:17pm (10/1/25)